heard from him again and i really hope that he's doing fine. he's been a part of me and i want nothing but the best in life for him. i really hope and pray that he'll find his way back to GOD. i know in his heart of hearts that he is a great person, perhaps even better than the ones who are so religious... he just needs to find his way back into the LORD's arms again.

last night i've dreamt of schatz. i know i've closed the book about him already but i can't help what i dream about during my unconcious moments, right? there were 2 other girls there but according to them, which was also verified by the scenes in my dream, that i was the only one who could pacify him.

i don't wanna think about it much. those 2 were just part of my past... i need to move on.

BTW, there are some major changes in my life of late. first, after having my own room for more than a decade i am now sharing it with my cousin who has moved in just the other day. i thought i'd have to deal with some major adjustments but i was quite surprised that i took it all easily. in fact, i'm kinda enjoying it and it lessens the guilt of having a big room all by myself when all the others share a much smaller room than mine. and exchanging my room's receiving area for someone to talk to when all the other's are already asleep was a good tradeoff indeed.  and i guess  GOD's preparing me for something.

second major change, i'm going back to the corporate world (GOD willing). i had to add that one because previous experiences had taught me that GOD could take away anything even if it's already within your reach. late last year i was already offered a job and 2 days before i start they told me that they have to shelve my employment because of some undiscussed issue. they said they would call but they never did. they'd given me the salary package already and i had accomplished everything that they asked me to do but it all went down the drain. so now i'm taking it all in stride. this is a much bigger company compared with the ones i've worked with in the past... so it's all in GOD's hands. if it's HIS will, it will happen... if not, i'll be better off somewhere. HE knows better.

this new company has given me a start date already, they're just waiting for me to submit my school credentials and certificate of employment from my previous company... then they'll do this extensive background check on me before i officially sign the contract. the salary package is good + all the benefits. i'm excited!

this verse comes in handy during this moment of waiting and anticipation;

Philippians 4:6,7

DO NOT BE ANXIOUS ABOUT ANYTHING, BUT IN EVERYTHING, BY PRAYER AND PETITION, WITH THANKSGIVING, PRESENT YOUR REQUESTS TO GOD. AND THE PEACE OF GOD, WHICH TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING, WILL GUARD YOUR HEARTS AND YOUR MINDS IN CHRIST JESUS.

and also this prayer from my cousin in NJ touched me so...